I am probably not as smart as I thought I was

Results were out today and not even a single A, like Damn! No jokes I am crushed, for the first time, I feel like I am having self esteem issues. It doesn’t just make sense to me, accepted, my methods were a bit crude, I am accustomed to writing and taking down notes on pen and paper and I mostly flipped through pages during exams while my classmates utilized the technology called Ctrl F. My exams were Open Book. I could use all materials asides the internet/

I am not one to justify my failures and I am not trying to, it is no excuse. Typing pained and bitter, the worst part is I don’t exactly know where I got it wrong, I am not exactly sure of what I should do better. Definitely stopped taking notes manually but it don’t feel enough.I have never been one to struggle with academics. Asides the fact that I started studding a bit late and had a bit of other pressures, I honestly don’t see where I got it wrong.

07:37 23rd January 2020/ I am Struggling Academically!!!

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  • Reply Nora January 26, 2020 at 10:58 am

    You are now in a place that requires more from you than your previous set-in methods, and it’s only normal that situations that reveal the gap between the former “normal” and the new goal surfaces, which in this case is your result. It makes sense of the learning journey, don’t you think so?

    • AE
      Reply AE January 26, 2020 at 5:46 pm

      Hi Nora, now that I think of it, it does make sense. The thing is, we dont get many opportunities to get it right. I hope my second and final semester makes the difference. This has provided me with a bit clarity. Thanks for taking time out to drop this

  • Reply Chioma January 29, 2020 at 6:12 pm

    Hey Anu,

    Sorry to hear about your struggles. Maybe you could ask the professors or teaching assistants for feedback on your results, so you can know where/how to improve.

    Don’t let your self esteem drop because of this. We all have missteps and setbacks, even the most “wonderful” of us. You’re smart and you have what it takes. Remember everything you’ve achieved in the past. This is totally doable. Just wipe your slate clean and consider this new term a fresh opportunity to excel.

    Sending you good vibes from L’Autriche, mon amie.

    • AE
      Reply AE January 29, 2020 at 9:20 pm

      Hi Chioma,

      Thanks for this, close to tears right now. I’ll do this. Thanks so much.

  • Reply Fisayo Adeleke February 8, 2020 at 11:23 am

    Hello Anu,
    First of all hugs..really tight belly squeezing hugs…those are my specialty.
    Can you talk to your peers who seem to be getting it right and your professors? Maybe you need to change your learning style, it might just be a little change.
    You, Anu are smart, very smart, I have never doubted that. You just need to do things a little differently than you are used to. Open up to prayer also, the prayer for understanding does wonders.
    And thank you for being vulnerable, I love you and I will pray for you sister!
    Hugs again

    P.S – I have friends in 2nd year of grad school in Washington who had these struggles in their first year. I can put you in touch with them if you wouldn’t mind.

    • AE
      Reply AE February 8, 2020 at 5:51 pm

      Thanks for taking out time to drop a comment Fisayo, really appreciate it, I am not really into hugs but I am sending you a virtual one lol. Yeah, I really need to. I have appointment with my professor and I will also reach out to classmates to know what they did differently and I needs your prayers. I will also take up praying *covers face* I will really love to meet your friends also.

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